inpatientdiaries
You’re special, but not THAT special…
But I’m special! Yes, you are special. Very special. But I’m telling you now, you are not the exception to all things eating disorder recovery-related. I used to think, and still occasionally do think, that the rules when it came to recovery somehow just didn’t apply to me. They applied to every other human being […]
MoreAnorexia and rabies… (hear me out)
Pre-warning: right, this post is something a little bit different and I’m going to need you to just hear me out on this one. The concept of it came to me during one of my frequent sleepless nights, so it might be a bit rough around the edges but I hope you get the picture. […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 15
7:50 I am woken for meds. I forgot to put my usual alarm on. 8:15 For breakfast I decide to have coco pops. This is a massive deal. I have been too scared to have them and it is the first time ever I’ve actually had a bowl of them. I have them warm and […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 11
5:45 I am woken up and weighed. 6:00 I read for a bit and snooze. I worry about my CTM later on today. Only 4 hours. 7:40 My alarm goes off. I go and shower and get dressed. 8:15 Breakfast. Hot weetabix, grapefruit juice, peanut butter toast x2. The tables have moved round so that […]
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The Inpatient Diaries: Day 4
5:30 I am woken up to be weighed. I groan and the nurse laughs at me. I have to go to the toilet with the nurse standing at the door to make sure I’m not water-loading. I’m weighed. I go back to bed but don’t fall asleep again. 8:23 Breakfast. I really push the boat […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 3
07:00 OMG. It can’t be. I’ve read it wrong. 7?! I haven’t slept past 5 in months. Today is going to be a good day. 07:10 I wash my face and have a “shower”. I get dressed. 07:30 Meds. The nurse on duty is the one who told me when I self-discharged during my previous […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 2
05:11 I wake up. Why do I always wake up so early? This is annoying because it means the day will seem longer. 06:00 I realise I have nearly played animal crossing for an hour. I decide to go and have a shower. 06:25 That shower cannot be classed as a shower. It’s literally just […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 1
05:00 I slept! OMG I actually slept. Like without waking up. Amazing. Who knew? Overjoyed doesn’t even begin to describe it. Is it too early to text mum and tell her I slept? Probably. I’ll wait. 05:15 I go to the loo. The flush isn’t working. Ugh. That’s so annoying. Oh well. I put soap […]
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