anorexia
You’re special, but not THAT special…
But I’m special! Yes, you are special. Very special. But I’m telling you now, you are not the exception to all things eating disorder recovery-related. I used to think, and still occasionally do think, that the rules when it came to recovery somehow just didn’t apply to me. They applied to every other human being […]
MoreAnorexia and rabies… (hear me out)
Pre-warning: right, this post is something a little bit different and I’m going to need you to just hear me out on this one. The concept of it came to me during one of my frequent sleepless nights, so it might be a bit rough around the edges but I hope you get the picture. […]
MoreOn Magic, Manifestation and Mind Chatter
Tonight I’ve been thinking and you know what? I believe in magic. I see it existing around me all the time. Although the tricks can be explained logically and by something really ordinary and boring, I’d rather not ruin the fun. I’m only now learning to accept the fact that most people fill their days […]
MoreLetting go, feeling queasy and learning to sing again.
Yesterday I realised I had forgotten how to sing. Now, I don’t mean singing as in opera, or even in any sort of tune, I mean just singing because you feel like it. Singing when you’re in the shower, in the car, or when a catchy song is stuck in your head. I hadn’t done […]
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The Inpatient Diaries: Day 24
7:55 I shower, get dressed, brush my teeth and get my meds. 8:15 For breakfast I have shreddies, grapefruit juice and then toast with peanut butter and chocolate spread and a tea. Here is a dingbat from today, can you get it? (I thought this one was a bit rogue, personally). 9:00 I nap (and […]
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The Inpatient Diaries: Day 17
7:45 Wake up. 8:15 For breaky I have 4 weetabix, toast with PB and jam and a coffee. 9:00 I am playing animal crossing and FINALLY my island gets the 3 star rating which means the concert will take place tomorrow. I’m overjoyed. I know immediately when this happens that it will go on my […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 15
7:50 I am woken for meds. I forgot to put my usual alarm on. 8:15 For breakfast I decide to have coco pops. This is a massive deal. I have been too scared to have them and it is the first time ever I’ve actually had a bowl of them. I have them warm and […]
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The Inpatient Diaries: Day 14
5:45 I am woken up and weighed. I see the number and I’m shocked at the rate at which I’m gaining. It makes me scared but also happy because it means I’ll be out of here sooner. Speaking of, I’m already scared for my CPA on Wednesday. (A CPA is like the CTM on Mondays, […]
Morethe Inpatient Diaries: Day 13
7:30 I shower and get dressed. 8:15 Breakfast time. I (self-serve) a double bowl of shreddies (meal plan increase yay) and 2 slices of toast, one with butter and jam and the other with peanut butter. I get told off because I have only used half of the butter packet. I have only used half […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 12
7:20 I’m woken for meds. 7:45 I brush my teeth, get dressed and strip my bed. 8:15 Breakfast. Hot shreddies (cereal rotation day as Tuesday), grapefruit juice then one toast with PB and another with choccy spread. I consider going for jam but I worry I won’t like it as much as the chocolate spread […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 11
5:45 I am woken up and weighed. 6:00 I read for a bit and snooze. I worry about my CTM later on today. Only 4 hours. 7:40 My alarm goes off. I go and shower and get dressed. 8:15 Breakfast. Hot weetabix, grapefruit juice, peanut butter toast x2. The tables have moved round so that […]
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The Inpatient Diaries: Day 7
Sidenote: I don’t want to go into too much detail about specific patients and nurses in the day-to-day diaries because I’ve recently become aware that some people are reading them! PS. Hi Bronnie 😉 05:45 I am woken and weighed. I know I won’t fall asleep again after this so I shower and wash my […]
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The Inpatient Diaries: Day 4
5:30 I am woken up to be weighed. I groan and the nurse laughs at me. I have to go to the toilet with the nurse standing at the door to make sure I’m not water-loading. I’m weighed. I go back to bed but don’t fall asleep again. 8:23 Breakfast. I really push the boat […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 3
07:00 OMG. It can’t be. I’ve read it wrong. 7?! I haven’t slept past 5 in months. Today is going to be a good day. 07:10 I wash my face and have a “shower”. I get dressed. 07:30 Meds. The nurse on duty is the one who told me when I self-discharged during my previous […]
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The Inpatient Diaries: Day 2
05:11 I wake up. Why do I always wake up so early? This is annoying because it means the day will seem longer. 06:00 I realise I have nearly played animal crossing for an hour. I decide to go and have a shower. 06:25 That shower cannot be classed as a shower. It’s literally just […]
MoreChallenge jar
Hey everyone! Bit of a different post today because my day has been really boring and I read back on my “Inpatient Diaries post” and didn’t think there was much anyone would be interested in lol. So instead, I thought I would make a post about my challenge jar that I’m currently making. The idea […]
MoreThe Inpatient Diaries: Day 1
05:00 I slept! OMG I actually slept. Like without waking up. Amazing. Who knew? Overjoyed doesn’t even begin to describe it. Is it too early to text mum and tell her I slept? Probably. I’ll wait. 05:15 I go to the loo. The flush isn’t working. Ugh. That’s so annoying. Oh well. I put soap […]
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leith’s recovery 