recovery
You’re special, but not THAT special…
But I’m special! Yes, you are special. Very special. But I’m telling you now, you are not the exception to all things eating disorder recovery-related. I used to think, and still occasionally do think, that the rules when it came to recovery somehow just didn’t apply to me. They applied to every other human being […]
MoreWe made it ❤️
I really, really don’t want this to be an “oh wow look how much I’ve achieved this year I’m saying all this to make people feel bad about themselves because nobody else in the world has done anything ever” post. 2020 was bad for everyone. We’re all glad its over. It was pretty horrendous. But […]
MoreAnorexia and rabies… (hear me out)
Pre-warning: right, this post is something a little bit different and I’m going to need you to just hear me out on this one. The concept of it came to me during one of my frequent sleepless nights, so it might be a bit rough around the edges but I hope you get the picture. […]
MoreHearing voices and healing the mind.
This post felt appropriate because I’ve had so many comments recently regarding how I look and “how well I’m doing”. Yes, I’ve gained the weight. Yes, I look different. But also yes, I AM STILL STRUGGLING. Just because I’ve doubled my body weight (mmhmm. I’ve over doubled it) and eat ice cream now, doesn’t mean […]
MoreMy Recovery Promises
Because I am committed to full recovery, I promise to: Eat without restriction. Trust the process. Speak to someone when I am struggling. Not read labels. Use normal cutlery. Not eat at the same time every day. Show myself compassion, inside and out. Not body check. Not weigh myself. Have the same dinners as Mum […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #10
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: This is your permission to do the opposite today. And every day. If you’ve done it once you can do it again, and again, and again… No matter how scary it is. And it will become easier and you will become free. Do the opposite to whatever your ED tells you […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #9
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: Remind yourself every day to trust the process. Keep going. Keep going. Keep going. It will save your life. TODAY’S POSITIVE AFFIRMATION: I am my own superhero. TODAY’S SELF-CARE MOMENT: Went on a lovely walk with Phoebe. TODAY’S NOTE TO SELF: You have been through hell, you deserve to love yourself. […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #8
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: On those “I feel stuck” days do something – no matter how scary or how small – to show your ED that YOU are the boss. TODAY’S POSITIVE AFFIRMATION: My actions define my happiness NOT the number on the scale. TODAY’S SELF-CARE MOMENT: Went to Starbucks with Immy. TODAY’S NOTE TO […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #7
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: Whether you are struggling and need help or see someone struggling who needs help – don’t be afraid to reach out. It’s okay not to be okay. TODAY’S POSITIVE AFFIRMATION: A kind heart is the more beautiful than any body. TODAY’S SELF-CARE MOMENT: Saw my friends and had a pizza! TODAY’S […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #6
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: Be proud of every step you take. Keep stepping forward. It may not feel as if you are making progress but you’re doing great. One step at a time. TODAY’S POSITIVE AFFIRMATION: I am proud of how far I’ve come and am excited for what I’ll do in the future. TODAY’S […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #5
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: Hold your head up. Research has proven the connection between poor posture and tiredness, especially in people with depression. It is found that by simply keeping your back and shoulders upright and holding your head up, it helps you to become more alert and less anxious. TODAY’S POSITIVE AFFIRMATION: I trust […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #4
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: Your ED will twist everything you do or say to make you feel inferior, worthless and undeserving. This is how it gets under your skin and stays there; convincing you every day that you don’t deserve to eat, constantly comparing your body, food and life against some unachievable perfection. So cruel […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #3
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: You don’t have to wait until “Snack Time” to have a snack. If your body says “Please feed me” then you don’t have to wait for the clock to show a certain time. Eat when you are physically or mentally hungry. Any time is Snack Time. TODAY’S POSITIVE AFFIRMATION: I love […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #2
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: It’s exhausting to battle every single day. Rest a while. Even the greatest warriors need to recharge their batteries. Give yourself a break. It won’t happen overnight so be patient. Rest, sleep, get more determined and NEVER give up. TODAY’S POSITIVE AFFIRMATION: I deserve a positive life. TODAY’S SELF-CARE MOMENT: Had […]
MoreRECOVERY RITUALS #1
DAILY INTENTIONS TODAY’S MANTRA: If your body asks for seconds, you haven’t had enough firsts. It’s perfectly okay to eat more. You need more than, more than enough in recovery. TODAY’S POSITIVE AFFIRMATION: Each day my life is filled with love and joy. TODAY’S SELF-CARE MOMENT: Eat as much as you want, when you want! […]
MoreRecovery Q&A: Going “All In”, weight distrIbution and extreme hunger
I thought it would be useful for a few people to hear a bit about what life is really like now I’m in recovery. I must say as a side note though, this is the BRUTAL HONEST TRUTH and it probably doesn’t sound that lovely, but trust me IT IS WORTH IT! Q1. Would you […]
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MY PLANS FOR RECOVERY!
I thought I would dedicate a whole blog post to my recovery bucket list because its a topic I LOVE thinking about and it really does bring me so much joy. During my previous admission I made a book called “Reasons to Recover” which basically is a scrapbook of photos of things I want to […]
MoreANOREXIA Q&A PART 2
I thought I’d do another question and answer post as my first one was so popular and people still hold many misconceptions about the illness and treatment. Through this post I hope to shed some light onto the reality of anorexia and being an inpatient and also help others to feel less alone in their […]
MoreOn patience (not patients) and good things to come.
Congrats! I have just popped up to grant you the gift of an abundance of patience. Use it now, or later, or much, much later. It’s up to you entirely. This special donation allows you to explore the option of waiting a long time whilst being at peace. You may even already have it, if […]
MoreThursday thoughts on authenticity, perseverance and biscuits.
Afternoon all! Had some #deepthoughts today about persevering. God, it’s really a big one, isn’t it? So easily overlooked too. You might be on a huge journey right now (chances are you are, *cough* COVID *cough*) and I’m just here to remind you that you WILL REACH THE OTHER SIDE! The mountain you’re climbing at […]
MoreConceptualising freedom, growing waistlines and sweat.
Hi again, after today’s update I still had quite a bit I wanted to talk about so thought I would do yet another rambly post. I’ve been thinking a lot today about how my situation, of having to be in hospital in order to overcome my anorexia, is practically the exact same as everyone else’s. […]
MorePacking for an Inpatient Admission – My Advice
Thought I would do a post explaining what I brought with me to hospital as I wish prior to my first voluntary admission I had known what was useful to have and what I should have left at home. Mind you, as previously mentioned on the blog, I have packed more than the average patient […]
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leith’s recovery 